A different perspective on what matters more

I thought I knew it all, how the world goes around, how everything works. And I was wrong, I knew nothing and only by standing barefoot in Bali I have started to understand what this story called life is about.

This is my story and this is my view on the world:

I have been travelling almost all my life (work related or personal), staying in luxury hotels or cozy airbnb`s, eating at expensive restaurants or at the dodgy place at the corner on the street, seeing museums and concerts and so I thought I pretty much know what travelling is about.

And then, one day, I guess Karma worked and I found out about a unique new experience called “Barefoot in Bali” and then I discover this amazingly unique human being called Crina.

But let me start with a disclaimer: I am strong believer that one should travel in their one style- seeing all in one day or in one month, talking to everybody or being in silence and experiencing what goes around you, but what I am encouraging everybody is to come with an open mind and soul and embrace whatever the journey is preparing for you.

And being “Barefoot in Bali” did exactly this for me and let me explain why:

I had no expectations; it was a new place, new people and new environment. Honestly I just wanted to sleep, eat good healthy food and relax. And yes, I had all that, but then I had the following bonuses:

  • I have met the most incredibly generous, funny, beautiful, humble people. Crina, Andreea, Vyra and all the souls I have met during my experience have now a particular place in my heart.
  • I realized that we all have been broken during our life, some have holes difficult to repair, but if we are working on this, it will get better; we are not alone in this world and sometimes it gets easier by sharing.
  • I realized that expressing your thoughts and feelings is not a shame, and we should all be free to do this; Say Thank you more, Love You more and even more of F..K you, I don`t like this!
  • I realized that loving me completely with all the flaws and scars is not an easy process, but one day I can get there.
  • I realized that no matter the size of your body, YOGA is for anyone! No matter how perfect or imperfect we are.

After 9 days I have learned more about me and the human kind, and this happened because I listened more with my hearth than with my mind.

Don`t get me wrong, I was not reborn, I didn`t need this. I just have now a different perspective on what matters more to me and that it is ok to be imperfect, we all are in the end, but this is the beauty of life.

Did I miss friend Crina and all the other lovely human beings after this experience? God, Yes I did! Do I constantly thinking on ways to come back?  Of course I do! Did it surpass my expectations? Definitively yes!

But in the end, this was my experience, they way I felt it and for which I am always going to be grateful to Crina and the lovely Balinese people!

And I guess the below poem is what defines me now, after my Barefoot journey ended:

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AS I BEGAN TO LOVE MYSELF – BY CHARLIE CHAPLIN

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering
are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
As I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time
was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this
person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life,
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.
Today I call it “MATURITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance,
I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens
at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm.
Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time,
and I stopped designing huge projects for the future.
Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do
and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in
my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for
my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew
me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude
a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since
I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry
about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING
is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me
and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my
mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this
connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems
with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing
new worlds are born.Today I know THAT IS “LIFE”!

 

-Lore